Aschermanns: March 2017

Monday, March 27, 2017

How'd I get so lucky

I don't know if it is because we are finally at home, or the string of bad news I have heard from other families, or the simple fact that life is so hectic right now that it feels like life is passing by too fast, but this month I have been overly sentimental. I can't help but look at my family, my home, my life and I feel just so damn blessed. I don't say this to brag, but because I feel like I must put it out there so that whoever, whatever is in charge knows I am so grateful and it doesn't all disappear. I have been having this overwhelming feeling of fear that with so much richness in my life there is so much risk to loose something. I am hoping to transition this fear into gratefulness and hopefully build my ability to live in the moment and cherish as much as possible.

One exercise I have been practicing is simple. Looking around my house I often see an endless To-Do List, this is frustrating and to be honest as soon as I think I am almost done with my chores I turn around to find more tasks or even more infuriating the things I just finished being unfinished by my little helpers. So instead, I breathe, I look, really look, and think: I will miss this. Not the picking up, but the reminders that a family lives here: the plastic horses in my bath tub, the little finger prints on my windows, the toys lined up on my dresser, the paint on my kitchen counter, the constant cushion chaos of my couch, the list is endless. Not always, but quite often doing this has allowed me to transform frustration into a smile.